Fiery February Part 3



Tynlee Anne




so adorable!




My girls



my amazing little loves :)

     Jessica, Stephen, Steve, Karen, Pam (mom), and I were in the room when the "driver" came in to go over risks (it was rainy weather, possible car accident, possibility of having to intubate Tynlee), sign paperwork, etc.  Shortly after that, sweet Tynlee was wheeled to Jessica's room in what looked like a mini-rocket ship.  It took 2 men to wheel her in it and it seemed like it was 5 or 6 feet long.  It contained several oxygen tanks, and hundreds of other tricky contraptions.  It was time for Jessica to say good-bye.  We thought it would be a good idea to give the family of 3 a quiet minute alone, however, while we stepped outside the room, the driver, the rocket ship pushers, and the lady who would be riding with Tynlee remained in the room.  I felt bad because it felt like such an invasion of their privacy.  Thankfully Jessica was happy to spend any second she could with her baby.  The next moment I witnessed was extremely difficult to watch... when Stephen told Jess good-bye.  It was so sad! It was almost impossible for me to hold it together as I watched my sister sob and my brother-in-law hold her and reassure her.  

     The night had been filled with moments in which I didn't have words for.  Moments when I felt completely overwhelmed, and then completely filled with God's peace.  I know those were the moments in which people were praying for our family, and I can't begin to thank you enough for those prayers you sent our way.  People that I didn't even know told me that they were praying! It was awesome, comforting, and extremely reassuring.

     It wasn't until I got in the truck to head home around 1am when I had a ridiculous sob fest.  It both sounded and felt like I was wailing.  I had no words to say, but I trusted God knew my heart.  It was time for every single thing I had held inside for the last 7 hours to come out.  The most amazing thing was, that the closer I got to home the more my sobs became praises.  It was such a comforting experience to begin thinking about the details of the night and the way they played out.  1. Jessica was induced early, and if she hadn't been, the growth would have continued to grow at the same rate as the baby.  2. Tynlee's arms came out, meaning emergency c-section.  Had she delivered naturally, it might have risked being ruptured, or further damage.  3. The growth grew outward, not inward, hindering her breathing.  4. Stanford is so close to us! 

     I was completely hoarse by the time I got home to the amazing blessing of my 4 boys.  My sweet husband had been at work since 2:45 that morning, but he waited up for me, to hold me and comfort me. 

     There are so many more details to this story, so I will try to  fill in the blanks later! Thankfully Jessica, Stephen, and Tynlee spent their very first day at their home today.   I know they are exhausted, but still counting their blessings.

     2 more quick things, on Monday as I was leaving the hospital my grandfather and I crossed paths... he had to bring my Grandma Bev to the ER, worried about an infection in her foot.  The ER doc said she had just been on it too much, however, yesterday she found out she had an infection in her bone.  She is having a hard time walking and appears to be in a lot of pain.   Please continue your prayers for her that the infection would heal quickly and not cause damage. 

   And, lastly, yesterday we found out that my dear Grandma Jo, DOES have breast cancer.  I feel so bad for the emotional ups and downs she has been through, but amazed by her positive attitude.  She will have another surgery (she had one last Friday) in two weeks and then begin radiation.  So, please pray for her also. 

     Thank you so much for your thoughts, prayers, and concern for our family during this time.  I am so, so blessed, and I fall more in love with my Savior every day!